A little while back, your mommy called me to tell me that you were coming. I had been waiting for that phone call for a while--almost since the day your mom and dad got back from their honeymoon! We cried happy tears and I may have even screamed and jumped up and down a little bit. The happy news of you spread quickly.
A few weeks ago, your mommy called me again. This call was as heartbreaking as the first was joyful. She said that she had been to see her doctor to check up on you, and that you had stopped growing and your heart was no longer beating. Just as quietly as you entered our lives, you left.
Your mommy has been my friend for most of my life. I usually refer to her as "my Caroline" around here, and everyone--even people who have never met her--knows who I am talking about. She is my most special friend. As an extension of her, you would have been the most special baby.
I imagine that you might not have had your mom's curls, but you would have had a touch of her red hair. I think that you might have had amazing bright eyes like your daddy and a huge smile like your mommy's. I like to think that you would have loved me intensely. You could have come to my house during the summers, and we would have baked cookies and played with the cowboys. They would have loved you so much!
So many people already loved you...your mommy and daddy, of course. Your grandma and grandpa. Me. You were a long-awaited answer to a heartfelt prayer. We all miss you. Your mommy is such a great lady, and she will be a wonderful mom. But Baby, no matter what, you will always be hers. She is walking through these sad days of missing you by claiming this verse:
"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4
My Caroline's heart desire is to be a mommy. Even though losing you isn't at all what she wanted, there is no denying that by your very existence you made her dream come true.
I hope that, even in your brief life, you felt love. You brought love to our lives, and because of you, we will never be the same. Someday we will see you again, and then your mommy will get to be with you forever. I love you, Glory Baby.
Glory Baby--Christy Nockels
Glory baby, you slipped away as fast as we could say baby...baby
You were growing, what happened dear?
You disappeared on us, baby...baby
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe until we're home with you,
Until we're home with you.
Miss you every day
Miss you in every way
But we know there's a day
when we will hold you, we will hold you.
You'll kiss our tears away
When we're home to stay
Can't wait for the day when we will see you,
We will see you.
But baby, let sweet Jesus hold you
til mom and dad can hold you
You'll just have heaven before we do
You'll just have heaven before we do.
Sweet little babies, it's hard to understand it
'cause we're hurting,
We are hurting
But there is healing
And we know we're stronger people through the growing
And in knowing
That all things work together for our good
And God works his purposes just like he said he would
Just like he said he would
I can't imagine heaven's lullabies
and what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing, heaven is your home
And it's all you'll ever know, it's all you'll ever know....