Day 6

In a disappointing turn of events, we just found out that today will not be the day I get to go home. My new-found freedom to consume all liquids has gone just as quickly as it came yesterday. During the course of the day yesterday, I drank a little bit of a vanilla milkshake, ate a few spoonfuls of strawberry ice cream, took a few sips of a fruit smoothie, and had some ice chips. I felt weak and shaky for much of the day, just like you do when your blood sugar has dropped too low and you need food. I just couldn't handle more than what I had! Hubby spent the night with me last night, and I woke up early this morning with that same weak and shaky feeling. I drank a little bit of apple juice, hoping that the sugar would help with the icky feeling. No sooner had the juice gone down than it came right back up. And with that juice went my ticket home today.

The good doctor has ordered an x-ray of my belly today so they can get a clear picture of what is (or is not) happening in there. I am also set to be re-hooked to an IV line so I can be re-hydrated and will receive pain meds through that line. It is not a good feeling to take oral pain meds on an empty stomach!

In other news, my left leg is numb. The numbness started on Day 2, and has gone from total loss of feeling to tingling and back again. The doctor tells me it is most likely due to the use of a retractor during surgery, which might have pressed on a nerve. Numbness is not uncommon, and should go away on its own. Still--how annoying! It reminds me of when Baby was born and one of my legs was numb from anesthesia. When the nurses tried to help me move from one bed to another, I literally collapsed under my own weight and the nurse had to dive to catch me. Good memories.

I miss my babies. I talk to them every afternoon, and every night before bedtime. My mom and my husband tell me how good they are being...how helpful...how kind to each other...how hard they are trying. My heart breaks every time I think of them there, and me here, and how much I want to be with them.

Please pray today that the IV will do its trick. Pray that the fluids will fill my body and that I will lose that sickly feeling so that I can work on eating. I WANT TO GO HOME. Everything I do is working toward that.